reality check..

what if love is not enough to save us from the reality that we can never be? :((

When a devil met an angel..

You might say I am devil with a good heart..
I am nice but I do get mean most of the time..
I never expected to meet an Angel..
Well, I do know that opposites attract..
but I never did believe it..
Its weird writing this because we have been together for 4 years and 3 months now.. and its I suddenly realized everything just a while ago..

We went to eat at McDonalds.. I hated that branch for the past few months because of the crew and the pathetic service they are providing.. it was rather late already so I knew that they would only have a few counter because only a few would eat at that time.. unexpectedly, I was wrong.. SO WRONG... there were only 2 counters opened and the line was piling up very fast.. and it was four persons in front of us.. and it took forever to get to the counter... I kept on thinking what to say when I get to the counter.. I wanted to complain about the lousy service they are giving the customers.. I was telling that to my honey and he can see I was so frustrated about eating at that branch.. I keep on telling him stories about complaining even at other fast food chains because of very slow service and the other pathetic crew.. again I was complaining about everything.. and last time we argued he was complaining about my newly discovered attitude of being mean and impatient.. so I apologized when we were already eating..

we were eating and there is still a pending order.. we finished eating and the pending order was still not ready.. what the...? but I didn't complain because I know he would be disappointed about me.. when we were eating there are two stray street children that entered the store.. they were going to the counter and fighting inside the store.. they asked money from customers who are waiting for their order.. I thought that they are annoying boys who likes getting into trouble.. I keep looking for a security guard to stop them from straying inside the store... safety for other customers who they are disturbing.. my honey asked me if I was full.. because he wanted to give the fries to the children... I agreed because its what he wanted... but deep inside I was thinking that he shouldn't give it to them because they are rowdy and too disturbing.. but I said he should give them.. when we were leaving he handed the food to the older boy... when we were about to ride a jeepney, I was staring at the two.. the older boy gave the younger one the fries as a whole box/container and was getting the ketchup from the plastic.. my heart melted seeing them happy and sharing.. and I saw honey smiling back to the boys.. I was touched and thought how nice he was compared to what I would be doing.. dont get me wrong I have done good deeds such as that, but I was suprised how different I was judging them..

I realized that he was an angel that God sent to stay by my side.. even if I had treated him bad in some times.. or even acted bad.. he never left my side.. he was there even at my worst.. he was still there at my best... he was always there..

actually I already know how much I wanted to spend every single day of my life with him.. I never played around anymore because I was happy and fulfilled. This night made me realize how much I am lucky even if he is not rich or even if he is still haven't finished college... I wanted to show everyone how down to earth he was.. I already stepped on his pride yet he never said anything against it.. he felt bad that I do most of the things that he should have been doing... but I never regret having to do all those things for him.. he is my everything and I will not give him up for anything in the world...

If only it is easy to make other people realize that money will never buy love..
If only I can tell everyone how he is..
If only I can make my family approve..

I am doing my best to do everything.. and I know how much he wanted to do everything for me..
thats why I love you... <3

10 Years from Now

If I were to be asked where I will be 10 years from now, I see myself as a Licensed Architect who is practicing and currently living in Singapore. I choose Singapore because I had seen the beauty the city has to offer and it really has amazed me compared to other countries I had been, and it is closer to the Philippines so that I can go home, if needed, easily. I wanted to be an Architect in charge of construction, where I would be visiting the construction and not just sitting and designing.  I would have also opened my own small Bakeshop that is well known by everyone, it would serve as my hobby and reliever from stress at work. I would invite my dad to play golf with me at Sentosa and probably visit them often. My friends and I had a deal that we are only allowed to get married after designing and the constructing three (3) buildings, and I am sticking to that Idea  because it would help me focus more in my career before anything.

I can only achieve these goals if I work hard and be more focused on what to do. After I graduate at 2011, I would still need to fill up the remaining hours for internship before I can get the board exams. I would be entering small architectural firms, because I wanted to learn new things and get more hands on activities first. After getting my license, I would be working at Ayala Land Inc and start my career there and grow as an Architect. I choose ALI because of the opportunities that can give me, and when I was working there they gave me an inspiration to be an Architect. I would also have taken my Masters Degree in Business Administration in Ateneo de Manila University or University of the Philippines while working. I would treat my mom, dad and siblings at least once a week and contribute to the fees. At the age of 27, I planned to get married with the man who has been with me for 10 years and start a new life with him and our twins. I decided to do everything according to what I planned, yet shortcomings are always evident, so I will just keep things in control and go with what will happen.

I should always be open to offers that would help me grow and extend to new opportunities that life has to give. I will never give up on my dreams and always keep my feet on the ground and my heart stable. If I don’t start striving hard now, I will never go anywhere, but I know that if I wanted something I can do anything to make it happen. I also know that by getting along with people through communicating and respecting them, I can gain more networks that is needed in this kind of industry. Having a good faith in the Lord and knowing that He would never lead me into any danger is also one of thing I would keep in mind. I am not good in drawing or in drafting, but I reached my fifth year and now currently in the process of completing my thesis. There is no impossible dream, nor unbeatable foes, all I have to do is aim high and go beyond the limits and work hard. It may be hard work to accomplish my dreams, there are constraints and troubles, but I know there will always be happiness to go with it and I know I will make it through no matter what it takes. 

How can make an impossible dream into reality? Just wait and see. J

This is actually my Planning 3 Assignment, but this is really what I am aiming for.